All I had to offer him...

Was brokenness and strife,

But he did something beautiful in my life.

The thoughts come back, come back.

It's killing me.

I want to cry, sleep and cry some more.

None of it makes any sense...

How could I possibly feel this way?

Surely it will go in a week... Or two. Or more.

And just when I think it's about to go, the thoughts come back.

Every.Single.Time.

It's just not fair.

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Here, have a pic, it's easy on the eyes....

Jennifer Love Hewitt can't sing.

Is what I can see/hear by watching her old school music vid on Max Music Channel.
BUT she's still gorgeous... Turn for her? Maybe.

My God I never realised how HOT Natalie Imbruglia is. When I first started watching X Factor, I was like "Wow Danni Minogue has gotten pretty?!".
What an insult, sorry Natalie.

Oh awesome, my favourite singer of all time a.k.a. AMY LEE has just popped up on the box in front of me.
Isn't it weird how the T.V. still goes by the nickname of 'box'? They're more like... Picture frames?

Back to Amy Lee: she's beautiful, soulful and her voice carries a certain peaceful aura which just reaches out to me.
There was a stage a few months back where all I would listen to was Evanescence, and all I would sing was Evanescence.
The sad part? I really thought I sounded like her!
The comforting part? (for listeners anyway), I don't. So I stopped.

I hope I don't sound like Amali in that damn AAMI ad and no one has told me, because if that's the case I think I'll stop opening my mouth altogether.

Today I feel a little odd, slightly ill in the stomach. Ever get that 'nervous sick' feeling in your throat/tummy for no reason at all? No? Probably because I woke up early for the first time in a while and don't eat breakfast.

Breakfast sucks, I can't tolerate milk anymore let alone in the morning. I gag.


I just went to fix the table for lunch right, and of course in all my clumsiness, I broke a glass. It shattered into tiny pieces.
It's annoying because no matter how well you sweep at the time it breaks, you'll always find the occasional piece about 7 metres away.
The sound of glass breaking is beautiful. The little cuts in the pieces of glass are beautiful.

And now it's time for a Nutella sandwich before work, sorry for the fail attempt at a blog.



Love x

26 secrets... But don't tell anyone.

1. I make mature decisions... But have an immature mind.

2. I hate answering the home phone.

3. I say I'm a fussy eater and don't like lots of different food, when in actual fact that's not true. I'm just too scared to try the food.

4. I have a disease called "Osgood Schlatters Disease". It's probably the least harmful disease known to man!

5. I also have an anxiety disorder.

6. I absolutely LOVE living in North Sunshine. And don't want to move to Caroline Springs :(

7. Death used to be my biggest fear... Now I'm more scared of moths.

8. I grieve every single day.

9. I also feel bad every time I'm having a good laugh.

10. I hate my feet, my teeth, MY EARS, my weight, my boob size, and the fact that if I shave my legs the hair will be back the next day.

11. I hate being (in the) wrong.

12. I love pet names :) bubby wubby snooky wookie poooooooooooo (I guess you could refer back to 1.).

13. My career options from since I was little, in chronological order:

- A princess

- A doctor

- A politician

- A news reporter

- An actor

14. My favourite animal in the world is the Quokka.

15. I love babies. It's freaky how much I love babies.

16. I pee a lot when it's cold.

17. I'm the only one of my immediate family who saw my Mum die.

18. I looove op shopping, but I also love high end brands + couture.

19. I would like to get piercings and tattoos, but wouldn't want to disgrace my family.

20. I want to one day marry my boyfriend Mike, and for him to propose to me with a pink diamond ring (HI MIKE PLEASE READ THIS).

21. I can't wait to get a white fluffy puppy, who's name shall be Cookie, and she shall have a pink collar with crystals/diamantes. God I'm obsessed with puppies.

22. I'm an obese woman living inside an 18 year old, slim body.

23. My career of choice is acting, but in actual fact my dream would to be in musicals... The only thing is, no matter how hard I try, I just can't sing.

24. I'm lazy, unmotivated and a procrastinator, yet still smart.

25. On that note, I claim to be the genius of the family ;)

26. I think my dad is the strongest person in the whole world.

Aaaaand yeah. If I can be bothered I'll make another one of these.

<3